Tilting The Hourglass.

I hate having nothing to do, it gets me thinking too much.

Heartbeat.

We're composing our funeral songs.

It's the seven day of fasting and im feeling really weak and tired. Had a soccer match just now and it was fucking fun until i vomited out nothing, which was really painful because there was nothing to be vomited out. Eyes were red and i could hardly breathe, dramatic huh.

Went to eat dinner at the nearby foodcourt and i had my fucking usual mee wanton. After 12 hours of fasting, i couldnt even finish one bowl. Neither could the others, we were just fucking thirsty for water.

Bring it to your lips and experience.

Salvation.

Weekend = Fasting = Boring.

Tomorrow's the first day of fasting in school and i expect the Chinese people to disturb us. Oh and probably, we'll play soccer after school.

Voices.

Excuse me, do i even know you?

Common tests are over and fasting month is tomorrow. It doesn't make a fucking difference anyway, you just cant eat or drink till sunset. What's so hard about it.

Celebrated by playing soccer at Tampines stadium and it was so fucking fun as we were playing in the heavy rain. It was so damn cold and everyone was super drenched. Especially the fucking obese people, i can see their black nipples from far.

Right after that, we went to watch the movie 'Where Got Ghost?'. It was fucking cold and my whole body was shivering and i couldn't even focus on the movie. Tariq was laughing all the way, even in the not funny part, which is really irritating.

It's not ironic, it's obvious.

Study.

MIA.

Last Bit Of Sanity.

It seems like we're strangers.

I lost my ezlink today, what could be worse? Maybe i should exaggerate a little, just like Spongebob. In the episode when he lost his nametag, he lost his identity. Well, i lost my identity too.

Had an awesome match during pe today. I accidently sprained my ankle and my toe was bleeding somehow. What's the big deal, you just get to wear white socks now.

I always believe there is hope and i despise myself for it. They would never give me the same sacrifice, and i couldn't care less what my time is spent on.

I do keep promises, but i'm too afraid to fulfill them.

Hey Nightmare.

Previous trip.

Went to see a doctor in the morning to get my checkup done for my upcoming mountain hiking trip. Well after he checked all my breathing and stuff, one nurse came and she gave me one cup. And yes, i had to pee in the cup.

I studied maths the whole day today and im pretty confident about the upcoming tests. Next would be chemistry and social studies i guess. And omg, im fucking excited about the mountain hiking trip.

Fasting month is coming up and i'll be a good boy from then on. The bad part is, you can't be horny during fasting month. Sigh. Don't you guys remember Chun Li from street fighter? She can be a fucking pornstar.

Oh and somehow my new nickname is Fifi. Syafififififiq.

Goats On A Boat.

No need for introductions.

I've been chosen to go to Mount Ophir, in other words, Gunung Ledang. I'm fucking excited since this is my third time conquering a mountain, what an achievement. We're going to go rafting and i heard that the place are filled with eerie stuff. Maybe this will be the first time i would encounter a ghost.

Had NCC today and it was fucking torture for my juniors since they lack of discipline. While they're doing that, i went to the canteen to grab a bubble tea and lepak over there. I started studying since yesterday and i almost mastered maths.

I've read about people like you at the back of toilet doors.

Crushed.

Learning to save.

Studystudystudy, that's all i can think about right now. Due to some economic problems, papa would probably get fired from his job. Since most of his colleagues got fired since yesterday. But of course, they would still want me to pursue my studies and forbid me from getting a job.

It's time for me to push everything aside except my studies and my CCA points. My dreams were crushed since i could not apply to VJC even if i could as only those who take Amaths can apply. Oh well, Meridian JC will do i guess.

The reason i didn't come to school today was that i need to catch up with my studies. The reason i go to school was just to make friends i guess. Teachers aren't helpful enough.

Saving to learn.

Hope.

Im a fucking marksman and i think i can become a sniper now. I'll be in the toilet and i'll fall down into this traphole and appear in a secret spy organization building with fucking hot mistresses. I'd love to see that fucking happen.

Went to have dinner with Tariq and Ashraf today at the nearby foodcourt and i ordered the fucking same thing again. Kinda relived the childhood memories i had with them, especially the time i used to be in malay dance. Luckily i didnt turn gay huh.

Life?

Im too fucking young to talk about life.

Spacing out.

I look prettier than my sister.

Today was class photo taking and i wished i'll look damn hot in it. For the informal photo, i wore Shiyong's spectacles and played with Samantha's hair. Oh and Syed was at one corner doing one random pose which was damn fucking random ah.

Went to a foodcourt nearby after school and had my favourite Mee Wan Ton. As always, i ordered extra spicy and i was sweating like a fucking pig running on a threadmill.

Don't you get it. Showing people that im happy, always smiling but actually im not? Its fucking called reverse psychology.

When will people stop lying?

Fireworks.

Who's that hot bitch?

Yesterday my relatives came to my house just to celebrate National Day. I was busy playing guitar hero the whole day with my cousin and totally forgot about the parade. But still, at least i got to see the fireworks and Singapore Idol which was stupid as always.

After they went back, i got kinda bored at home so i decided to go to the street soccer court behind my house at night. I didn't expect so many people to be there and most of them were wearing red shirts. Singapore spirit huh.

I didn't expect my Monday to be so boring. Was looking forward to going out with clique but none of them replied or called. So i had to lie down infront of my tv for like 4731848031 hours. Not to mention, i had a dream of catching Mewtwo with a Pokeball.

Exams are near, what the fuck am i doing?

Alone.

I know im a boring person and im not even a good friend. But do you guys always have to lie whenever i'm around. If you don't like me, i'll fuck off.

I realize my relationship with friends doesn't last long. There are always better and funnier people you can hang out with. Soon, you'll even forget that i existed.

When i was young, mama said that i can only cry in the toilet. Is it okay not to hold it in anymore?

Mia.

Cry Me A Fucking River.

Tears.

The performances today was fucking boring and the fiesta sucked balls too. Had alot of photos taken in the class and i think i look good in one of them. I fell in love with a red balloon i found in school.

After school, we went to Tampines Mall to catch the new movie GI joe but the line was too fucking long. So we decided to go Fesa's house and slacked there until it was time for us to play soccer at East Coast Park. Fesa ordered two pizzas and we all ate like some pigs. I learned how to play another song on the guitar, which was beat it by michael jackson.

Feeling tired after playing soccer, we went to lepak at the arena. It was funny that Anderson couldn't juggle the ball properly and we all got excited when two hot girls walked past. Im getting a camera phone soon so i would post more pictures eh.

Streaming down my face.

Trust.

The devil wears prada.

Went Alfy's house to play soccer today which turned out to be quite fun actually. I had nothing to do as always and have all the time to do anything i want in my life. Boring huh. Most of my classmates got sick and maybe our class will be quarantined soon. Im fucking hoping to see that happen.

I don't think i can find anyone i can trust in this sad world. Everyone's a fucking liar. I feel like bringing a pillow to school and sleep whenever its POA lesson. I think i broke my ribcage or something, wouldn't that be cool. I can see my own lungs from there.

I think my body odor today was smellier than that fucking indian because i never changed my PE shirt for two days and it smells fucking bad. Tomorrow's national day and im not exactly excited about it.

Liar in the glass.

If you dont wanna invite me, at least tell me straight to the face.

Fragile.

Ego.

Had a soccer match with the scouts and people were amazed by my awesomeness. People ask how do i get so good, i would reply "by watching youtube". Honestly, I did not know how i became so awesome, thanks to the concussion i guess.

Im sorry if im too aggressive or i get angry very easily. I just don't like losing. People come to me only when they have no one to talk to, as if im like their last resort eh.

Liars.

Contradiction.

Nintendo.

Today was fucking boring because it was Khalid's birthday. That stupid fucking fat small penis piece of obese shit chibai. I hope you'll get thinner as you grow and would be the best obese soccer player. Happy birthday son of a bitch. As usual, there was no present for you.

I got kinda pissed during Dnt as i broke my workpiece again but teacher managed to fix it with some glue that looks like cum. My drawing skills are improving everyday and now, i can draw Bulbusaur and Jigglypuff properly. Oh and i fucking owned at the stupid iphone game called tap tap or some shit.

Tomorrow's Ncc and i hope Alfy and that fat black mama indian shit who bathe only twice monthly come. Oh and why is everyone into fucking Yoyo shit.

Procrastinate.

Ignorance.

I am the boy who sets your girl on fire.

Planned to go Syed house to finish our maths project but had a short notice that there was mother tongue oral in the evening. I wasn't prepared for it and i think it was crappy. Although my teacher gave comments on my good reading skills.

Exams are near and i would like to concentrate more on my studies. I'll stop playing soccer, although i think it's impossible, and i would stop going out with friends too. I'll at least try my best to achieve something good out of my fucking life. Oh you're right, i don't even have a life.

Sorry if i'm ever so down, i'm just confused. At least promise me you'll study hard and we can graduate together. Oh, try to remember this.

"In 10 years down the road, we'll be laughing about this."

Diarrhea.

The Past Shouldn't Stay Dead.

Flashback.

Deanna was in the hospital because she injured her leg. So after me and clique went to eat dinner, we visited her but got kinda lost finding her ward. After we reached, i got fucking excited when i saw box full of latex gloves. And we all started playing with it. I fell in love with the hospital.

I was in bus 12, heading back home to Marine Parade. I was sitting on the second floor at the back seat until one group of ITE students came and seated all around me. I paused my ipod for awhile because i have a feeling that they're talking about me. One girl said that the guy beside her is cute (which is me). So they started talking and making friends with me. To my surprise, one ITE girl asked for my number and i just gave.

I was playing soccer with clique at Alfy house until something horrible happened. The ball went faraway and we asked Abdullah to get it since he was the nearest to it. Instead of going one round over the fence to get the ball, he climbed over the fence and lost balance of himself. He fell down like one fat fucker and his head had a great impact with the stones on the ground. His head started to bleed and all of us started laughing.

I have a fetish for latex gloves.

Pray For Plagues.

Suicide season.

I would like to share a story that happened at Pasir Ris two months ago. It's up to you to believe it or not but somehow, it was not shown in the papers or in the news.

I slept my cousin's house yesterday and we shared ghost stories in the night. So my Auntie decided to tell me an incident that happened infront of her eyes which led to something horrifying in the night.

My auntie was waiting for my cousin to come back from work, which was late at night. While she was waiting, she heard something fell from above as the impact of it was very loud. She couldn't see anything as the lights around her neighbourhood was pathetic. Immediately, my cousin called her phone and said that someone commited suicide infront of him. She rushed downstairs and warned him to get away from it. Victim's skull was broken and his brain kinda split into two.

Everyone bursts into tears after they realize that the one who commited suicide was their neighbour upstairs.

Soon after that, they went upstairs and my cousin felt kinda terrified after seeing someone died horribly infront of him. People say that when someone dies, you must not look at the corpse. I don't really know why but it has something to do with the spirit being angry. On the same night, my cousin got disturbed. He started seeing black figures in the corner of the room, people knocking his window and stuffs like that.

Whole family got terrified so they decided to call some religious guy to settle this. Well the rest of it was about religious stuffs.

They call this tragedy.